Been A While

So I havent blogged in a very long time, times are hard and people get really busy(me) having to study isnt easy. thinking about what you want in life is hard too,who are we making the decission for? ourselves or others. I think sometimes it can be a bit of both and thats what makes it so hard for me to decide.

Life is hard, when you dont know where you belong.

Twins Will Be Twins...

So my nephews came over, they're so cute they were spelling all these small words then they asked their gran to ask them to spell bigger words, adorable right?

Family means so much to me and some times when I dont see my nephews for a long time it does make me sad, because their boys and grow sooo fast. Talking about height, their going to shoot right past me and im really going to look like an umpalumpa then arent I? ahh well ive always been told that ill never grow, back then I thought it was a big joke but then I realise that they was actualy telling me the truth. So anyways after spelling all these words they decided ton run about and hide in the toilets for a game, damn kids are so creative. Twins will be twins.

Being a twin is amazing and I hope that twins around the world feel the same bput their twin. The love I have for her is unique and having her around everyday is cool because I always think what if I wasnt a twin and I was just her sister, it would be cool but as much as it is to be one. She has all these quirky ways about her that I love. I love my twin with all my heart.

Ive always said when I have kids That I want them to be twins but I guess that wont happen since im a  twin, hopefully Ill be the first, hopefully. That would be great.

Everything and anything is possible....

So I have not blogged in a while so I have a lot to say. First off i'd like to say how much of a great woman Whitney houston was , she went too soon and I hope eveyone appriciated all her music. She battled with her drug addiction for a long time but its not about that its about the great things that she achieved in her life whilst she was here with us. She was beautiful, talented, from what I know just, great. So its really sad that she has said goodnight to the world, I think its great that she has left us behind some amazing music. R.I.P Whitney houston.

Sixth-form recently has been ok but it could be better, to be honest. Nice to have a break away from it for a while, since im in a break right now ive had time to think about studies, friends, future, and me. I think thinking space is good for me, but sometimes my mind wonders in plces I dont like or im uncomfortable with.. yh. Back to sixth-form next week..

Holidays this time round has been so.. dragged out. I haven't ive done some studying but I could have done more, have a couple days left so hopefully they will be sucessful. I have no problem in studying, its just the way I study can make me fall off track at times. Holiday is like being a snail at times, I just move slow motion with everything else, well thats after 2 o'clock. Im most of the time up, cleaning, tire myself out till midday. So overal holidays have been, me being lazy, with everything.

Family time is everything to me, without my family I would crumble, I look strong on the outside but im weak and soft really. Just my family being there is a blessing and im glad I have such a supportive, loving, talented, humorous, creative, beautiful and the list could go on and on but I wont because it will take up the whole page. Overall my family is the greatest and I appriciate holidays because to be honest we do have much family time and I dont have much holidays so when I do its the greatest feeling in the world. I love my family no matter what.

Deviantart is one site I havent been able to come off since ive been on holiday, its additve, its my addition and I love it. Its somewhere I love to be, its what I love so being on there everyday doesn't bother me in the slightest. It makes me happy. Ive just started a new drawing of the month might tell you guys about it in my next post. Draw draw draw draw draw draw DRAWWWWW, I just love it!!!!!!! The result is amazinng, I will become a established artist or fashion designer, so look out for me ;) because I am determined to reach my goal which ever way possible, everything and anything is possible in this world.My addition this holiday.

Last thought, always appreiciate everyone around you and the things they have to offer to your life that may open your eyes up to something new, you dont know how long you have left.

Pub ...walk of SHAME

So I was meant to post something yesterday about a little family outing we had, so ill just do it now.

Yesterday we went to the pub, first of all we was told that we had to wait for 45minutes because there wasnt enough seats, then the man offered us a table and said that we would have to serve ourselfs, like omg what the hell is thiss??!! I could not believe it, it was actually funny at first. Then we found out that the kitchen was down the hell!. OMG.

There was tones of people and all the seats where taken. So anyways we just payed at the desk, at the front then we did our WALK OF SHAMEEE !! LOL its was scary having to go get our plates, pick what we wanted then bring the plate all the way back to our table, not to meantion we all went at one time, part from my dad. Mummy told me that I should tell my dad to come get his plate, so I went by MYSELF, I had to do my walk of shame alone. LOL. This meant that when I got back to the table, dad would have to leave me and I would be on me todd (Alone). Made me so nerves.

So we had lunch, had a laugh, could fill up out drinks as much as wwe wanted and of course my twin made me put like two drinks in one lol , she turned me into a reble. It was so fun just to sit and chat with FOOD, in the pub lol :D.
P.S. Would NEVER do it again.

Christmas Day Is Nearly Out ... ZZzz

So christmas is nearly over. Today wasnt as bad as I thought it would be, having your family around you is the greatest thing, thats all I ask for, to have my family around me on christmas day.

Its funny because people only think of the presents but now im older, I have learnt that presents isn't everything. Learning how to appreciate your family is really important and you should always tresure all the beautiful moments you have with eachother. Having a big family is nice, but I can only count the people who care on both hands, thats it and I think thats sad.

I am so knackered ffrom all that cooking with mum, but I must admitt It was soo fun cooking with mummy, shes a star, couldnt wish for anyone better even if I had the chose. We cooked like three different types of meets, like mum does every year and plenty other stuff. And like always mum stayed up through to christmas, she never really sleeps, she gets about four, five hours of sleep because shes nonstop cooking. So I decided to join. On our feet all day, but we do make a great team. One last thing about that, i've realised im constantly asking about the food mum makes; How long does it have to go in for? Is it ready yet? So what do you put in that then? Are you going to leave that in there? Did you do that to the meat the last time?, so now im thinking I maybe taking an interest to cooking.. hmm.

Christmas dinner. Like usual I stuff my face but this year,that was not the case. This evening I just had one plate, I know... some people may think.. 'ohh thats not too bad' but with me im a slight pig when it comes to christmas dinner, sooo now im starting to think that my stomach has shrunk. I well and truely said goodbye to the second plate of food this evening, ahwell. Hooray!!.

Newyear. New attitude to life.

Deep in thought

So I was just here... thinking and my mind wondered off, started thinking about my sister, missing her is the worst feeling ever, some mornings I wake up and my mind wonders off like usual, this is because im the only one awake so this happens often, thinking about her more everyday can only make me stronger, and cherish all the wonderful moments we had together.

I always try think of the good memories because there the best. I always rememeber her putting make-up on me, she use to call me her make-up dolly because my other sisters jokinly didnt want to have make-up on their faces. Their not girly girls so thats perfectly understandable, I didnt mind getting it done. This only meant that I got to see myself with all these different looks and experience her talent first hand.
Khimi was so ambisious and so talented, she had a beautiful singing voice, I only wish that I had longer with her. Weakness in me, I always remember her singing this song, this song will always be in my heart aswell as khimmi.
she had a beautiful soul.. love you khimi <3

Not obsessed with Justin Bieber, Christmas album

Justin Bieber's christmas album is amazing and I like every song on there but my twin seems to think I have an obsession with him, so im going to share some of my thoughts about Justin.
I love all the songs but ill pick one out of them all to talk about. 'Fa la la'  is such a beautiful song, love the harmonys, the video. I love the acapella just as much as the normal version, they both gert a ten out of ten from me. Doing a duet with BoysIIMen is one of Justin's career highlights, I think.

The othere day i was watching 'This is Justin Bieber' I like Justin, so I watched it obviously, because I wanted to see what he was going to performe.
I think its awesome that Justin gives to charities. I think its wonderful as a star to always give and to continue giving and im proud at this age he is giving to charity because this means when he is older and wiser he will continue to do so for people he cares for and thinks deserve it. Giving to children is always a good thing, happy Justin is doing so.
So there's this website where you can personalise your own Justin bieber album cover , sounds good, doesnt mean im obsessed, does it?!
 heres a few pics that I like .. Justin bieber ..2http://www.fanpop.com/spots/justin-bieber/images/27714543/title/justin-bieber-photo
.... enjoyed them..ok so now im done.